I had a realization a couple weeks ago. One that caught me off guard and made me pause for a moment. Baby Paul is almost 11 months old, and up until just a few weeks ago, we had a pretty steady breastfeeding routine going on.
And then one day, I realized it was gone.
For what felt like ages now, baby Paul would nurse first thing in the morning, right after morning nap, sometime in the afternoon, after 2nd nap, and then again before bedtime. A few months ago he dropped the middle of the night feeding, and I’m still overjoyed about being able to sleep consistently through the night.
But in general, I’m estimating he consistently nursed five or six times a day. It was a routine set by his lead, and I had grown to expect it.
And in what felt like a blink of an eye, we went from five to six times a day, to once or twice a day. Right now, he nurses first thing in the morning for only a minute or two, and then maybe if I’m lucky again right before bedtime.
I’ve thought about it for awhile, and I think there are a few reasons for this sudden change. Basically two things have recently “popped” into Paul’s life. At the ripe old age of 10 months, baby Paul randomly decided to become a thumb sucker. Additionally, he’s really taken to table food, and I’m assuming he’s finding enjoyment and nourishment sitting round the table instead of being cradled in my arms.
This all sounds logical, right?
I had really hoped to make it to the 12-month mark with him, as it’s always been my goal with each of my babies. But I know breastfeeding is a relationship and not a one way street, and if he’s saying it’s over, well then it is.
I wouldn’t say I’m sad, maybe a little bummed out, but I’ll be OK. I’ve had the joy of breastfeeding all four of my children, and it’s been one of the most magical bonding experiences of my life. It’s totally fine that it’s coming to a close, I promise. It’s a chapter in my life that is coming to an end, but that just means there are more exciting adventures waiting to be written. My baby is thriving, and he’s growing up.
So I guess you could say that we’re weaning. And I guess you could also say I’m reluctantly at peace with this decision.
How about you? If you breastfed, when did your child wean?
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