Today was a special day because a small miracle occurred — I had silence in the house. My mother took M to stay with her and I found myself, for the first time in a very long time, alone with my daughter.
Of course, having two kids not school age yet means they are with me all day, and I really don’t ever have a moment to myself. I managed to sneak off to Target alone this week and THAT was pretty amazing. I noticed that I don’t know how to be completely and truly alone and that I won’t be for many, many years.
Little L wasn’t as demanding as she usually is. I don’t really work much during the day because we are always on the go and she takes very short naps. By the time she goes down, I give my son his lunch and then she wakes up just a few moments later. But today we were both at ease.
M is always playing with her, making noise, and she gets super excited. I think the silence did us both some good and I found myself sitting on our porch…working, having coffee, and watching her play in her bouncer. It was pretty magical. She didn’t make a sound. She didn’t want to be held, but was content.
A few hours later my son came back, and it was back to normal! She was screaming with excitement, toys were thrown everywhere, and she wanted to be out of her chair and in the middle of the action.
Oh well! It was great while it lasted — I enjoyed our day in silence.