If you follow us closely you know that the name of my personal blog is Everyday Bay. I chose that name not long after I gave birth to Baylor. At that moment I was so smitten by him. I still am. He inspires me in ways that I never thought possible.
Becoming a mom hasn’t been the easiest adventure for me. I still struggle everyday. Most days I throw phrases around like “I’m about to lose my mind,” and “Baylor, you make crazy!” Motherhood has a hack for sometimes bringing out the things in us that we don’t like.
It also is pretty nifty for bringing out our better traits too.
When I was pregnant with Baylor I saw a change in myself that I never anticipated. He stirred something up in me that I didn’t even know was there.
When I had him I began to see the world in a different light. I began to look at every situation differently. This little person that I just gave life to changed me. He made me better. He made me learn a new way to be selfless. From the moment he came into this world, it was no longer about me, it was about him.
Everyday he grows and everyday he learns something new. Every time he learns something new my heart beams with pride. He makes me so proud.
I think about how proud I am of him and I can’t help but wonder if one day he will be proud of me, too. I want him to be proud of me. I want him to be glad that I am his mama. When I think about that, it pushes me to think about my future. It pushes me to come up with new ambitions. New hopes and dreams. Not only for him, but for me too. I want to be something that he can one day be proud of. I want to do it for him.
Becoming a mom has made me push for things that I thought I never would. It has given me new ambitions, a new thriving attitude towards everything I do.
He deserves the best. I am going to always do everything in my power to give that to him. Being a mom isn’t easy, but it makes wanting to be more, wanting to be the best you can be easy.