I consider myself extremely lucky that my son has been such a good sleeper throughout his first year of life. Every now and then he has a tough night that ends up in me being a “mombie” for a few days, which is fine, I totally embrace it. Since he has began getting his two top teeth these nights come a little more often.
A few nights ago he tossed and turned, cried ( I might have cried a little too), and screamed. I felt like I had done all I could. Finally I decided we would just wake up. At 2am. We would play and have a grand time because obviously sleep wasn’t an option, and that was ok.
After we played for a while he finally got sleepy enough to where we could both go back to sleep. We snuggled up on the couch, I sang to him, and stroked his hair (what little he does have). Finally, he entered into the most peaceful sleep. He had been asleep for a few minutes and I just wanted to soak it all in. While I was watching him sleep, he got the biggest grin on his face. I haven’t seen him smile like that in his sleep since he was a tiny newborn. I realized then that maybe us waking up in the middle of the night to play was just what he needed. Maybe he just needed a little bit of my time and attention right then, even if it was in the middle of the night.
His time as a baby is slowly going away. I’m sure the time that I have him as a toddler will fleet just as quick as his days as a baby. One day he won’t need me anymore. One day the last thing he will want to do is wake up in the middle of night just to play with his mommy. So for now, I will cherish these nights. I will always find the beauty in them because I know years from now I will miss it so much.
If you are struggling with your babe to get them to sleep on the right schedule or even if you are struggling with making the transition from co-sleeper to crib sleeper, just remember, these days are fleeting. You will blink and these days will be long behind you. Soak it in. Steal all the snuggles and sleepy kisses you can from that sweet babe. For all you know, all they need is a little reassurance from you and to know you love them, even in the middle of the night.